When I was a young child, probably around 8 or 9, I would play BINGO with my family once a month at our country club. It was a wonderful family event where my mom, dad, sister and I could all play on an equal playing field. One night, I just knew I was going to win the jackpot, the final game where the payout was $300! The excitement built as I got closer and closer and then my number was called! I WON! I remember crying I was so happy! And everyone laughed and carried on about how a 3rd grader won the jackpot! Boy was I proud!
My winning just continued from there. The incident created in me a winning attitude that allowed me to keep winning! I won the jackpot BINGO game several more times and of course by then, had the support of other people saying "You always WIN!" I went on to win all kinds of things! I remember one time winning a set of luggage from a mail in contest. I went after any and all opportunities to win, even if they seemed impossible or scam-like.
In fact, looking back I just expected to win everything from speech and poster contests to soccer games and positions as high school class officer and yearbook editor. Most of the time I came out on top. But sometimes I did not!
So what shifted in me over all these years? Why today do I stop myself from winning before I even start? Why don't I buy lottery tickets and send in for mail in contests? Why do I listen to that little voice in my head that says "You don't have a chance in hell!" Somewhere along the way I began to focus my attention on the few times when I didn't come out on top and the more I did that, the less I won.
This whole blog was prompted by me receiving a piece of "junk mail" and actually opening it. Normally, I would have just recycled it and moved on, but for some reason this one particular piece was calling out to me. It was a flyer with a key on it from a car dealership. My interest was sparked because we are looking for a new car. AND because it said "Someone in this area has the lucky key!" OOOOHHHH!!! The old voice came up again saying "This is just a scam. They're just trying to get me to their lot to force me into a car." And then I realized what I had just said and decided to turn it around! I said to myself "I used to ALWAYS win!" and "I'm ready to win again!"
Today I will go to the car lot and see what happens! If I WIN...boy won't that make for an interesting story! And if I don't I will at least recognize that I didn't check myself out before going for it.
Today I remember that I can't win if I don't try! Today I remember that I'll see it when I believe it!
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